You are the author of your own book. The beautiful thing about writing your own story is you can change it any time. You can use whatever characters you want, you control everything. Stop trying to find yourself. You know yourself better than anyone on earth so create the person you want to be. Strive to be the best you can be on a daily basis. This means you have to stop letting others dictate how you feel about yourself. Do not let anyone mess with your self-esteem. Be a leader! So what do you want to be? Think about this and write it down. Write down your dreams, write how you will achieve this dream, and who you want with you during the founey. Start slow and buld that momentum. You already are a super hero. Stop being afraid to show your powers. Get better every day.